Cleanse Day 3

Today had its highs and its lows. It started off great because both Clarence and I were down 3 1/2 pounds! Now I'm sure that's all water weight, but a lower number on the scale doesn't hurt to lift our spirits.

Breakfast:

Carrot, Mango, and Herb Smoothie



This smoothie was a great start to the day! I used mint as the herb, which was an unexpected taste and threw me off at first, but the more I had it the more I liked it. It was a nice change up from the berry smoothies we'd been having. It also seemed to more filling.

Lunch:

Spiced Butternut Squash and Apple Soup



I was so excited for this soup. I had fun preparing it and it made my house smell wonderful. But once I started pureeing it I knew I was in for trouble. The problem is the process was too similar to how I make Rhett's baby food. And once the soup was all blended up, it was the exact texture of his baby food. I couldn't get that thought out of my head, but I was feeling really woozy and hungry so I ate as much as I could. Well it wouldn't stay down. This was the lowest point of my day. I was so frustrated and told Clarence that I couldn't do it anymore. I simply can't do something that doesn't allow me to eat, and I have to eat, not only for myself, but for Rhett. After a call with Clarence I felt much better, and I ate a whole bag of a trail mix I made, which consisted of: 1/4 cup cashews, 1/4 cup peanuts, 1/4 cup whole almonds, 1/4 cup raisins, and 1/4 cup sunflower seeds. This trail mix saved me today.

Dinner:

Avocado with Bell Pepper and Tomatoes



After the rough afternoon, I knew we needed to have something for dinner that would pick us up, so I made our favorite dish so far, this avocado salad. Unfortunately, it wasn't quite the pick me up I had hoped it would be; Clarence couldn't finish his and was almost sick from it, and I choked it down. What is going on? As Clarence said after dinner, why does it seem like our bodies are rejecting food that is supposed to be so good for us?

Now before we started this cleanse, it's not like we ate fast food or pasta and pizza every night. We love salads and I make them often, big salads with lots of vegetables and fruits. I have always loved vegetables and try to get them in every meal. I also considered myself overall to be a health conscious person. For about 6 months now I've had a green smoothie every morning for breakfast, a salad or some light lunch, and then a variety of dinners, and I try to get in as much activity as I can with a new baby. Of course we love to eat out and we love our treats, so that's our downfall, but I considered our diet well-rounded. So that's why I'm so confused why we are feeling so nauseous at the thought of eating vegetables and I have absolutely no appetite.

I'll be honest, I'm not sure we're going to make it through the full 3 weeks. My main concern right now is getting enough to eat so I can continue to nurse Rhett, as that is my priority. I am counting my calories each day and if they are too low then I eat more, but I only have so many options. We are going to finish out this week and then evaluate. I wouldn't dismiss the benefits we are receiving from a 1 week cleanse. But, I know that I need to keep in mind that next week we will be adding in seafood, beans and lentils, and organic soy. I think that will make a big difference because we are really missing meat, so we'll feel like we're getting more food and we'll be more satisfied.

I want to be totally honest on here because if other people attempt this cleanse, I want them to know my true experience. It's hard for me to admit that this is really hard for me, but it is. I don't want to give up on this, but I also don't want to be sick and miserable each day. So we'll see. It really is just one day at a time.